Chequie,

Mom is bitter about something. She was crying. Yes. Something that she rarely do in front of me. Nevertheless, she's bitter about something. Okay, is it necessary to repeat that one more time? Gee.

I recited the food tests all by myself when I alighted from the bus. Loudly. It's so crazy, hearing a girl saying, "Put 2cm cube of unknown solution into the test tube and add in 2cm cube of sodium hydroxide followed by drops and drops of copper sulphate till the mixture turns its colour." Oblivious towards the people around me who were staring at me, I moved on to more of the food tests. Now then I felt this urgency to knock experiments into my head. Fuckin' weird.

I re-read the short entry before this. Hmm, too childish, I suppose. Eh no, it is too childish. Too short some more, making people crave for more retaliation. No, this is no joke. It involves mind, body and soul. -.-" So maybe I'm gonna ditch that aside. And no, no, I don't want this friendship to be over, but on the second thought, if there's gonna be no more trust between two bestfriends, I see no point dragging the friendship along, because the togetherness is gone. But when I oversee this problem through a bird's eye view, it's actually very small, but the large ego in the other party caused the micro-mini problem to balloon up, causing unnecessary tensions to arise. Hence friendship ties are affected. And obviously, the one with the large ego is of course, inevitably, me. Even she said so. I can accept that, because it's true. But I don't know how to save this fruitful friendship, I see ways to salvage it though. Anyway, just to be frank and honest with you, I indeed will lose you if we aren't friends anymore though as you claimed, I have 2 other more individuals to rely on. Yes, in the end I lose you, coz you have been my bestestestestest friend for the past 4 years, and someone really great known to humanity. No matter how many friends I've got, be it a million or what to rely on, I did lose something by the end of the day. You. Like I mentioned, you're my bestfriend. So I still lose you. I'm not exaggerating things like you may think, but I'm really sorry that you think I treat you like a spare tyre or whatnot. I know it's awful to feel that way, but how many times must I apologize to you? I've known you for long and yet I can't possibly dispense my apologies without meaning it? Come on, I've known you so much. I know what you despise and loath. Yes, I know things are not gonna be the same again if we're friends like normal. You're bitter about him coming in between. I agree I'm remorseful over what happened. I'm bitter over this too. I can't blame you if you found someone a billion times better than me or something, I know you deserve someone new. Once again, I'm very sorry. Please ignore the tone here. Just pretend I'm blogging it monotonously.