chlorine-consumption

These few days I've been stuck into a realm of idiot-ism. I was struck by awe, confusion and mostly, stupidity. You don't get it? Well, that means my stupidity has reached its extremity. True?
Never mind, it's okay. I don't ask you understand. It's for me to know.

Anyway, I just wanna apologize to Di whom I unintentionally vented my long-time-pent-up-anger on, last Friday night. I suffered an extreme case of mood swing so, I began chiding this innocent boy, hurling vulgarities and more abusive words, and ended up talking like normal, like as if nothing had happened in the first place. And if only you, my only sheep, reads this, I'm really sorry over what happened, and I don't mean what I had said, I don't want you to leave me. I know you're still resenting me over this, you have every right to hate me, but ultimately, I am really sorry. Mmbek.

Just the recent Sunday, I helped out at my aunt's stall at Changi Village. As expected, the queue was mercilessly long, and I was on my feet for 6 solid hours. At night, when I was out doing the dishes, the guy who helped out at the next stall approached me. Omagod mamma, I was really freaked out. Cos you see, this guy has been giving me chills running down my spine since he first saw me, so I chose to work in the kitchen so I have minimal sight of that freaky guy. He even bombarded my cuzzie with questions about me, from my status to my contact number. And then it's not over, when he approached me, he told me that he'll gonna rush home to change and then pick me up to give me a ride back home. OMG. I haven't had the chance to give him my answer cos after he was done with his offer, he rushed off. I was freaked out. He promised to come back at 8 pm. I checked the wall clock. 7.20 pm. So I quickly did my stuffs then cabot at 7.55pm, and caught the earliest bus possible- with one mission; to escape from that guy. Then in the bus, I was looking outside the window, hopefully to catch a glimpse of him on his bike speeding past me. And I think I did. And I ducked. How silly.

When I got back home, cuzzie informed me that the guy actually came to the stall and asked for me, but my aunt said that I've left. And look, she even said that the guy had even played dress-up, cos he looked so slick with his hair and his clothes- just to give me a ride back home- on his motorbike. WTF. Come to think of it, if I were to ride back home with him, I would havta sit so close to him and even hold on to him for support, knowing that it's been more than a decade since I ride on someone's bike. And honestly, I don't want to lead this guy on.

At the end of the night, I had a hard time turning in for the day cos I was really freaked out by what just happened. I saw myself on his bike, and it was giving me nightmares. Please. Not that he's hideous or what, he's actually good-looking, but no, no. I am certainly not interested.


Anyway, today I went swimming with Mom, Sis, the 3 little kiddies, mah cuzzie, and 2 more of my cuzzies. I think I consumed a bit too much chlorine and now having a sore throat. Thanks to Razi for splashing water into my nostrils. Pain. They did laps, but I was clinging to the side of the pool all along- and I gripped the sides hard when I was at the 1.8m pool. How pathetic.

Then we had dinner at KFC. (:

Well it seems that mah family and I might be going to Johore this Friday and even overnight there until Saturday. How nice. But then, this means I havta postpone my tuition to Sunday. Ahh, irritating.

3 days straight out with cuzzie, and I swear I've went insane. Don't blame me on why I've been going out with her. Cos you have no right to judge.

I'm already in my irritated-zone and I've been screaming into a lot of faces today- cuzzies, Mom and Sis. Sorry.

Hah. Results will be out soon. Finally. Will be going to the hell-hole in the afternoon, take the results then go home straight to cry. Woohoo.


I miss that boy.