Chequie,

A simple VCD changed my outlook on friendships. I couldn't resist but to watch the VCD three times, each time setting my tear ducts motor running wild.

Yes. Reminiscing is a painful thing when friendships are on the rocks. Salvaging a rocky friendship depends on the ego of both friends, then watch it crumble.

I realised, you have tried so hard to salvage our beautiful friendship, but it is always me who had to destroy it in the end. I realised you are the one who treasures me the most, and the one that loves me more than your boyfriend.

I know our conversation these days are stingy and sarcastic. It is not possible to get pissed.

I still remember the times when we were so close, that even nothing could separate us.


Remember during Christmas in 2004? We went to Bugis and bought flashy lights Christmas hats and attracted a hell lot of attention. We were loud and singing as we walked along the streets. At the end of the day we got chased by perverts who were old enought to be our fathers. You were very terrified that you suggested that we hide in a nearby shop. Instead of pulling my hand, you accidentally pulled 'somewhere else' cos you were too terrified.

Oh, remember the time when you imitated the exotic dancers in Raghav's Let's Work It Out? You were so funny that I laughed myself off your bed and had cramps. Then we failed miserable in attempts to do belly dancing like the exotic dancers.

Then CHOCQUET's first "music video" on 'Take Me Away' originally by Christina Vidal. Yes, we were crazy and Amirul commented nastily on my "strumming of electric guitar". Inside joke, babey. We nearly died of laughter when your dad surprised us with his sudden comeback.

I still remember a time when I lend you my shoulder to cry on. Then I felt so closely connected to you. Friendship bond grows stronger, day by day. But now it seems to get out of hand, and everything's upside down. Things that I used to abhor in the past are happening right to myself, you and me. I began to contradict what I said. It's sad, but true.

That's all fer now. One thing for sure, I still miss you, and I really love you, Bestfriend.