him. and her.

Omagod this is so touching I can just cry now. And fill up 892475215742097123 pails.

Stole this from -rrayn's blog.

"pheromones.(shh. mariyanah doesn't know what this is.)
that attracts girls to me. [=

and i went home.
only to sleep.
and i wake to use msn messenger.
and mariyanah's online.
great?
yeah. she's someone i can relate to.
a future shadow? maybe.
and she's a dictionary a version more advanced than me.

well that's all so farr.
signing off.
LCP -rrayn/ ryann?"


You taught me two new words today.
Ditto?
And that phero-whatever word.

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Di.
He's lookin so fine. So f!@#$%^ hot. I couldn't resist. I could have died.

He dragged me all the way to Banquet to satisfy his craving for carrot cake. That was before he havta rush off for NCC. To get his promotion. Woo. He got promoted to 1st sergeant. But I wasn't surprised. Knowing his kemarok-ness for NCC. His PASSION for NCC. He will NEVER EVER skip any NCC training even if he's freaking sick. DIE DIE MUST GO. Nevertheless I'm quite happy for him. Too proud for him, to be exact. Prettay envious of him, actually. Oh boy, he's my guy.

So when the clock strucked 3.15pm, ding dong, Cinderella havta go. Took 17. Couldn't take my eyes off him. Too hot la, he even scalded me. Oh goodbye, he will alight from the bus two stops ahead. Farewell. His breath still had the thick traces from the cigarette which he smoked earlier on after his lunch. Not that I mind, though. So our mouths exchanged breath. And there he go, he alighted, and left me alone. And we made funny faces with the window as our barrier.

But beneath this calm facade, I was feeling completely bitter inside.

Today, Embah (a Javanese term for granny) was admitted to hospital.
When Mom broke the news to me, I felt like as if the whole world has crashed down on me.
She fell down, and suffered a blood clot in her right brain.
Her right arm and leg were numb.
It was a pitiful sight.
I was crashing inside, the moment I stepped into the ward. But I refuse to let the tears fall. In the end, I failed to hold it back.
It was only yesterday night that she called my home, greeting me with her cheerful and bubbly voice.
She was very frail. And vulnerable.
My most favourite granny.
And this is so unexpected.


Embah,
I will promise to stay by your side. With every strength and free time I have, I will always be next to you.


I don't wanna lose the one I love. After today, things are not gonna be the same again. I'm going to spend all my free time now with her, no matter what happens. And this is possible, considering I'm slacking like a motherfucker now. A full-time slacker.