Went for the "Lebih sexy, katakan TIDAK!" campaign yesterday. Was totally hilarious though. We were late, and I was on the way to her place, and it was raining. So I had to run in the rain, and I saw this maid, brisk walking with an umbrella, and she happened to turn to me, and she ran to me (I STILL DIDN'T RECOGNIZE HER) so I was like, "why is that maid smiling and running to me?" and on closer look it's my CUZZIE. OMFG. And the most surprising thing happened, right there, right in the rain, WE SCREAMED. WTF. And then we went very maknenek-y and ran all the way to her place with under the umbrella and then begged our favourite Pak Im to drive us to D'Marquee. Fortunately he agreed.

So the event was ohkay. One mat came up to me and said, "You.. mata you lawa lah.." omfgwtfh.

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In the MRT, there was a couple beside me, (an old uncle and a young auntie) who were very intimate, that old chi ko pek had his hands all over the young auntie, and I happened to saw his right hand touching a boobie of the young auntie. Mind you, they are a COUPLE, not another case of sexual harrassment. The auntie pulak, happen to enjoy what he was doing to her so she was giggling like a young girl and tending to his 'services'. Qamal, in case you were there, the couple was beside my cuzzie when we were in the MRT, REMEMBER?

Studied with beloved Cuzzie at the airport. Both of us were traumatised by what the old uncle did to her. So we sat at the viewing mall and studied. 5 minutes later, guess what happened?

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THE OLD UNCLE AND THE YOUNG AUNTIE CAME AND SAT BESIDE US. Like, omgwtf I thought the incident in the MRT was the last sight of them, but nooooo, they had to like, come to T1 viewing mall of ALL PLACES and sit RIGHT NEXT TO US!!!!!! HOW COINCIDENTAL IS THAT!?

And you know lah, that viewing mall is slightly deserted, so I don't need to explain what are the other things they did, just dropping a hint that their 'activities' got slightly worse.

(THE OLD UNCLE'S HAND SLID DOWN HER THIGH NEAR HER PUSSY.)

Dah that's all I'm telling you. Cuzzie and I were traumatised badly.

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And I pranked Hero Bacin. Told him that I'm leaving for London in an hour's time, and that this is a surprise that I've been keeping from him, AND HE FELL FOR IT LAH. He suddenly kept quiet and in a low voice he asked, "What time are you going? And when are you coming back?" And guess what? He said he will call me back, and when he did, he was CHANGING and was rushing to the airport!!! I couldn't take it any longer and said, "I'm only bluffing you."

HE SCREAMED. LIKE, REALLY SCREAMED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And I laughed for five centuries.

Then he mentioned about how his mind when blank when he finally processed the information. Like, totally blank. And duh, fucking surprised.

YAYYYYYYYYYY. ((:

HARMONY ROCKZ / 22 JULY 2006

The event ROCKZ. I was officially HANYUT. Just like AMMJAYS. BOTH OF US WERE HANYUT.
Cos you know the reasons why? NOW LET ME TELL YOU WHY.

1) I kissed a guy who is NOT my boyfriend. (picture is with AMMJAYS)



2) I got a tattoo on my neck.





3) I belong to a dead beat death noize gang.





4) We did dirty dancing.





5) I became a whore to Huzairi and Yusri.





6) And Later I got proposed by both of them and I don't know who to choose, even though I already own the significant other.






7) I chose Yusri and the rejection to Huzairi affected him so bad, he became like this.




8) I have an affair with my lecturer.





9) I know I'm playing with fire, literally and metaphorically.





10) I affiliated with Tim to become original gangstas.



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Whereas for Goh Ammjays, she became more super hanyut.

1) She felled a tree with her sultry looks.





2) She vandalised.






3) She got herself a tattoo.




4) She became a whore to THREE guys.




5) Just like me, she got proposed by Yusri and Huzairi.





6) She crushed Bingy.





7) She got a flower from a mysterious sender, maybe Yusri?





8) She got a few new numbers.. *winks.




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In the end Huzairi got severely affected by the rejections so he resorted to snake-charming.



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BGSS ROCKZ.


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Last night.

I am a very happy girl today.

The gathering at CDC was ohkay. I love Goh Ammjays. She was wearing this long necklace and I love to pull it from her neck, in the other words, choke her. YAHAHAHAHAHA. I love that girl. And I got back my revenge by poking her boobies twice, cos she poked mine twice too at the Harmony Rockz event (oh oh will update about it once I get the pics!). YAYYYY. Sweet.

Late evening till night was spent with Hero Bacin. Cherished every minute like savouring every taste of the finest chocolate slowly to the last bite. It was unbeatable. It felt like high school love. Ah. Puppy. Dog. Kitty. Whatever.

I miss Fahrul. Has been a week since I saw him. That little guy is nuts, I tell you. He loves making fun of me. Calling me short and mocking my laughter. If you're like reading this, I'll make it public that, bro, you're the bestest-est brother I've ever had even though you are like super mega irritating. From your darling sistah.

Then I'll miss the besties. Hannie. Mira. Mal. Nad. Mirul. I have been going out with Hannie quite a number of times and it has been great. At least there's no cases of being drifted away from the girlfriends. Hannie, one day we must crash into Mira's and Nad's poly. Then kidnap both of them and bring them away. Yayy. But I don't think we can do the same to Mal. Cos we don't have the uniform. What else Mirul?

Hahahhaha and I love Nurul Janna Marican. My only primary school friend that I'm currently closely keeping in touch with. She was the one who made the effort to continue staying in touch with the other primary school friends, you know. If not, I would have hardly remembered any of my friends in primary school. Aku respect sama kau, sistah. Jiwa kawan siol. Not like others, merely sending a few messages to me for a period of time then menghilang ke tak-tahu-mana. No news. No berita. Chingg! HAHAHHAAHHAHA.

And lastly my Sabby Cuzzie. I love that girl to bits. Always hyper, my partner who will sing 'Sinaran' loudly with me in the middle of the streets. And she loves the part when I sing, "...bagai mahliiii-gai indah.." with an exaggerated 'liiiii'. Then she'll laugh like toot. Like no ending. Hahahhahaha crazy siol that cousin. But I like. Cos I fall into that category too.

Ah. Life is so great, I can taste the sweetness and feel the tenderness of it all.

OHMYGIDDYGODDIE I FINALLY MET NURULJANNA MARICAN!!!!

I WAS SO HAPPY LIKE TOOOOOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*breathe in*

I was at BK, then I saw this familiar face. So I was like, OMG JANNA. Slowly, I approached her, and when she saw me she studied my face for a while before going, "OH MY GOD, OH MY GOD, OH MY GOD.." then she stood up and we SCREAMED, and we hugged each other so tightly while her friend went, "hooooooo kayyyy.." We were like, so excited, shrieking and screaming, while Hero Bacin was so embarassed and he immediately went out, pretending to make a call. Bacin.

OMG IT HAS BEEN LIKE, ALMOST 5 YEARS SINCE I MET YOU JANNA!!!!!

:)))))))))))))) see i'm smiling like a freak now.

HHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHA that is the highlight of the week. The rest are unimportant. Dah, I'm going to take a nap now before going to the YA gathering at 4.30pm. HAPPY SIOL.

3 days since my last update, yet a lot of things happened. At least five million of them. Good and bad. At one o'clock today I had bad news from the doc. Then at three o'clock today I received another bad news. But this is lumrah hidup. Life currently down the wheels now.

I shall not blog about the one o'clock news today cos it's personal and somehow, life-threatening.

On a brighter note, I went for the Singapore Idol spectacular show last Wednesday. It was a kick-ass. We supported Nurul aka NOODLE.






You know what Hannie is doing.









Different pictures at different locations. I'm the 'L'. Like Hannie said, I'm the 'LOSER' and the 'LOVER'. Whereas for her, being the 'E', the 'EGOISTIC'. Self-proclaimed pulak tu! Yeahh.


Amiroool was pms-ing badly that night.


Miraaa and Nadee yang berambut karat. But somehow the colour complements their skin.


The stepping mamas.


The pic was taken a second after Hannie and I lost our balance and fall (hence the gap on the right side of the pic). If you observe the pic carefully, Qamal was quite literally LOOKING DOWN ON US. Look at his face, I find it super cute man! Impromptu action caught on camera.




Watch me got wasted. AH KIDDING. That jiajia drink isn't nice.


Inside Toyota WISH.




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Gayle was out.

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It was full exact 24 hours since Hero Bacin responded to my sms. (I bet Hannie noticed it yesterday) I was on the verge of extreme paranoia when I got a call at three o'clock and it was the bf. I nearly screamed but good thing I didn't. His phone was confiscated by the DM. He quite literally played with fire and got into five-million-foot-deep trouble with the school. I was close to tears when he told me what happened. Besides the discipline problem and blablabla which I obviously wouldn't type it out here cos it's between me and him, I just want him to know that whatever happens to him, I'll always stand by him and never ever leave his side. And I will keep closely to my words.

Lastly, I love you, bacin.

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Went shopping instead with Hannie yesterday. I was a pure jakun at CS toilet. Enough said.
We both bought the same bra. Green diamond-studded-front-buckled bra. Front-buckle tau. Lagi it's diamond-studded okay! *winks* Kinky, yes I know. So girls, are you green with envy now? And another black one. Others, we both bought the same jacket but of different colours, then oil blotters, bangles, fuck what else.. oh and my dream le coq sportif green bag (aka bag ayam) that I've been eyeing for since last week! Happy like toot man. Hahahahehheehhehohhoohohohoh. Dah enough.

I got tagged by miraaaa.


Say 7 weird and random facts about me
1. I can live on chocolates till the end of my life.
2. I baby-talked all cats I see.
3. I got all shy and will contemplate on a lot of things (is this right? will doing it be a right thing? i don't want to appear eager/serious/happy.. etc) and then will keep quiet for the rest of the time when Hero Bacin is near even though he is my bf.
4. I dream of dancing for MTV.
5. I always check my tummy at least 10 times a day to make sure it's flat.
6. I can cook! WHO SAYS I CAN'T?
7. I wish I am a persian cat.

7 people to do this:
1. Siti Hanisah
2. Mohd Amirool
3. Syed Mohd Qamal
4. Sabby Cuzzie
5. Sharifah Nadiah
6. Nurul Janna
7. WHOEVER WHO HAS A BLOG.

I like the way you pull me gently by my waist to bring me closer to you, then hold my hand and play with my fingers. I got all hot and shy and tried to divert the attention by pointing to a random car and said,

"EH look at that car! Odyssey/Matrix/Trajet/Merc ah! Handsome siah!"

In case you don't know, these little things seriously drive me wild in the inside.

Not forgetting the way you tilt your head to one side and stare deep into my eyes. I can practically hear my heart beat like a disco backing track.

Hero Bacin pls don't drive me crazy cos right now I am like, senyum2 like a gila woman.


AHHHHHHHHH I'M CRAVING FOR HOT FUDGE SUNDAE.

I'm beginning to fall in love with BVLGARI! The scent is like, so, WOW seh.

I'm feeling so bloated now. Must be the medication. I THINKK.

I'm feeling so happy now. REASONS:

1) Mom is fattening me up. (Imagine McSpicy, medium fries, an additional Filet-O-Fish, regular ice lemon tea and then more meals from KFC)

2) I'm going to watch Singapore Idol LIVE with Pretty Children + Nadee this Wednesday.

3) My hair has been behaving itself.


WEEEHEEEEEEEEEEEE~

DATE: 22 July 2006 (saturday)
VENUE: Orchard Atrium (Plaza Singapura)
Time: 3 Onwards.

PLEASE PLEASE COME to support our dear Ammjays and for her sake too. And if you come and you see her, come up to her and say, "HELLO MEIJUAN" and you will receive a big hug from her as a complimentary gift cos you came down all the way from home just to meet this sexy bitch. Like she said, no hello meijuan no hug.

Ahem ahem by the way I'll be there too, like OBVIOUSLY.

But if you see me please come up to me and say, "HELLO MARIA", and not only you will receive a big hug from me but also AHEM AHEM I will KISS YOU so you better come and say hello to me.

HAHAHHAHAHHAA AMMJAYS DAHLAH DON'T CRY LAH. hehs.

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It is such a boring afternoon.

Sis went off as early as 5 am for the one-day trip to Batam with her colleagues.
Whereas the rest of the family just went off to Johor.

AND I'M ALONE AT HOME.

But the happy news is, the knight in shining armour will come and rescue me from this Valley Of Boredom in the evening, after his soccer match. Around like, 6 to 7 pm!? THAT WILL BE LIKE, in 4 hours time!

Somebody please tell me what I am going to do to kill the time. Hero Bacin is sleeping now (recharging his energy for the soccer match later lah tu) and I'm like, so bored. I'm like going to die of boredom really soon even though it is physiologically impossible for a human to die of boredom or embarassment. But maybe this time I will prove science wrong. AH AS IF.

I'm talking crap la cos I haven't been sleeping so much lately and I've been eating food that contain 748532575205432573204864352 calories for every minute of my life.

The room is dark cos I overlapped sis' blanket over the curtain (too soon I know) and I fear if Mom or Dad will think that I'm into some black metal thingy that transforms me into a goth cos apparently Mom found out about the cuffs and she observed that I no longer used those colourful eyeshadows for my eye makeups but instead I degrade to a black eyeliner which I use to draw thick lines around my eyes, above eyelids lah, below the eyes la, in return, resembled a goth/punkrock and she started giving me the unnecessary 2-hour lecture about Islam and how they forbid these Satanic-worshipping thingy. But if only she knew that I DIDN'T EVEN GET MYSELF INVOLVED IN THIS BLACK/WHITE/BLUE/PURPLE METAL or plastic shit or whatsoever la. I don't know which is weirder, my sudden transform or Mom who suddenly took particular about me.

Oh that aside, I can't believe that somebody called me a player. Now what is wrong with everybody!?

Sheeeeshie. I'm going to drown my temporary sorrows into a book. Toods.


Take me to a land where it's only you and me.

I overdosed on Chipsmore's Double Choc and now I'm feeling dead sick.

It was a night I would never forget. Ever. (:
Nothing could ever beat the quality time spent with the sweet boyfriend last night. The crazy-ness, the idiot-ness, the belo-ness, the bacin-ness (he was from school) and the manja-ness.

Hannie came to my place to fetch me (aww that sweet darling! thankies!) and then we cabot off to Tamp, sneaky hidey from any familiar eyes, and then jalan tak straight! Got belok-belok, went to LJS to makan where I thought I was like, being so noisy and laughing out so loud, hahahaha simply because I miss Hannie so much and I haven't been like, talking to any of my girlfriend for the past 274357145931 centuries! I was missing out on Miraa too but she was so far at WOODLANDS! GRRRRRR dear Singapore please move Republic Poly to the east side pls!

ANDDD SOOOO FINALLY we went to the gym, ONLY TO BE DISAPPOINTED at the massive crowd and at least 5 billion hunks working out on the treadmill (oh yumms). So we left the gym and contemplated on going to the swimming complex instead, but the problem was we didn't bring the swimming suits and I was jokingly deciding to strip right to our undies which in some way or another resemble a bikini buttttttttttt unfortunately our undies doesn't look like the bikini-bikini type so I think we had to blank the whole idea out.

So at the staircase of the gym,

Hannie; Haizz.. so how?
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Me; GO YOUR HOUSE LEPAK AH.
Hannie; AH CAN AH.

So we walked all the way to Hannie's house, only to disappoint Miraaa cos at last we didn't meet up but I'm looking on the brighter side cos I believe we will meet up meet up meet up next week and I don't freaking care. HAHHAHAHAHAA

The moment we reached Hannie's place, Hannie ran straight into her room to what-you-call-that, OH mengubat rindu pada her hamsters! She even baby-talked them! OHMYGIDDYGODDY. Okay lah that shouldn't be a huge problem cos I baby-talked both of my newly-named cats ANGUS (pronounced as ANGG-GOOSE) AND ANAK! oooo purrrrrrrr angus! myyyy baby siti anakk!

AND THEN WE TOOK A SHOWER. *evil grin*

Which later we went downstairs to survey FISHES cos Hannie IS GOING TO GET ONE SOON. I can assure you in the next minute her house will be a miniature zoo cos she practically wants every animal in the world.

Meanwhile, above all the fun, Hero Bacin was having night study at school which was compulsory only for his class till 10pm. TEN FREAKING PM. So I insisted on fetching him after the night study, which he agreed. Yayy. But it came out to be an even more good news for me when it ended 1 hr 15 mins earlier. So I was rushing to the interchange and boarded the bus down to Simei and I was one minute earlier than him! HAH. He was obviously in his school uniform (which he concealed the top with a sweater) and got me laughing all the way from the bus stop to where we sat down. He was like, "i sabar je.." all the way but my laughter got even worse. Hhahahahhahahahahha so I told him to remove the sweater but he refused. So I went like, "Dahlah I already know lah you're from Temasek Secondary, don't try to hide the fact. Dah take it off. HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAAHAHHAAHAA"

So we talked about everything under the sun moon. Di bawah pepohon menyusuri angin bayu malam yang menenangkan. Ahhh romantic lah tu, furthermore yesterday night was malam jumaat. Hehs.

My heart was racing all night. He got me like, so weak at my knees and I think my adrenaline factory kinda overworked cos I had adrenaline rushes all over, every minute and I couldn't escape the fact that I couldn't meet him in the eyes. It all felt like first love. Am I considered lucky? To the fact that I was rescued by my knight in shining armour from Gunung Ledang. HAHHAHAHHAHAA OKAY SCRATCH THAT.

OMG Angus is sleeping in his cutiehottiegorgeyfabby 'sphinx' position on top of the PC and I swear he looks so cute that if he were a human I would have screwed him up right here right now at this moment.

Ahhhhhh freak now I'm craving for something hot and spicy. NOWWWW.

AND Sis will be off to the one-day tour at Batam tomorrow, AND OH OH she'll be away for an 8-day course this Monday which MEANNSSSSS:

5) I will not clean up her mess! (her tudungs are everywhere in the room almost every single day!)
4) I can own the room all to myself!
3) I can lock the door at any time I want!
2) I HAVE THE BIG BED ALL BY MYSELF

and most importantly..

1) I CAN OVERLAP THE CURTAIN WITH HER BLANKET which she don't like cos I'm using her beloved blanket (the purpose is to darken my room) <-- the main priority YAYYY LIFE IS GOOD.


Selamanya kan kujaga dirimu seperti kapas putih di hatiku takkan kubuat noda.

Hannie is a happy whore today cos she got herself two hamsters named Ash and Sam, both genders undefined, hence the bisexual names, please spare the thought that both hamsters are only two weeks old. HAHAA.

We went out shopping at NTUC today like Ah Mas.

And it's the gym and swimming tomorrow evening. YEAHHIE. (:

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"...so long puteriku yg i sygkn more den anytg in the world.."

Sometimes little phrases like this can like, totally make your day, or enough to drive you nuts. I sayang you too, my Hero Bacin.

Life is good.


Every little thing you do is tragic, all my life, oh was magic.

Hero Bacin is ending school today at 5pm.
And I'm going out at 5pm.
Aahhhhhhhhhhh bacin! He better make me happy tonight.


You mean the world to me. 110706.

Syazwan.
My Hero Bacin.
And I'm his Puteri Belo.
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eleventh`july-2006.
00:04hours.

"I lost you once and I'll never wanna lose you again.." -Hero Bacin

GIRLS NITE OUT CUM REUNION OF THE GIRLS CUM GOOD HAIR DAY

It started off with me waiting for Sharifah Nadiah, Nurul Amira and Siti Hanisah for freaking 20 minutes! (or I think it's more) I nearly dozed off at the staircase with a lot of aunties and kids and particularly MATS walking past me. BNBCCB.

Oh so we went to get a bottle of 1.5 litres iced lemon tea and the moment we reached Mira's home, we attacked her kitchen (ritual) and the old moments were like, relived, like a dejavu, cos each time Hannie and I come over to Mira's place, Hannie will take charge of the food whereas I do the drinks then Mira will set up the fan and table. Nostalgic seh. So we had yummy sambal tumis udang with this yummy beef dish and iced lemon tea. OH FUG YUMMMY LAH.

And then we did the main highlight of the day, to dye Mira's and Nadee's hair! So they dyed like, bloody red (from what I see).


Amira and Nadee's pretty solid asses (which got groped by me, obviously)


Hannie the hair stylist.


Tools.


Doing Nadee's hair.


Nadee is shyyy like hermit crab.


Alamak malu again.


Amira waiting for her turn.


Step intellectual.


Yes Nadee, I know you can't wait to use the conditioner to see the overall result.


Amira's turn.


Oi Nadee, suker nyer! HAHAHAA.



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I camwhored lah.














I MISS THESE GIRLS. Love you love you love you damn much la okay. (:
And Miraaa's parents sent us back home in MY DREAM CAR!!!!!! I was being apure ultimate jakun when I was inside the Toyota WISH. It was so rabak to the extend that I had to hold myself back from kissing the seat.

NDP FAMILY DAY

It was a total BBLLLLLLLLASSSSSSSSSTTTTTTTTTTTTTT! (I realise that I keep using this exact sentence) Met up with Malmal, Miroool and Miraaaa pretty late cos ahem ahem. OKAY. We were like forming ourselves like choo-choo train and selit-menyelit in between the crowds to get to the front. All in the midst of blood, sweat and tears. CHEH.


R.E.T.R.I.B.U.T.I.O.N


Eh eh Nadee suker that red bang bang thing.


Random.


Miroool, Nadee and Hannie.


I know lawa lah Miraaa.


Nadee is having multiple orgasms.


Nadee and Hannie.


Eh hahahaaaahahahahahha funny siah my face.


My tongue is so __________.


I love this bitch.


And this one, too.


And this one as well. Enough said, I love girls.


Amira's face so cantik. Mintak my kiss again right. HAHAAAA.



This NS GUY is Hannie's temporary crush for 2 hours. And when I took a look closely, he looked just like MY DAD. OF ALL PEOPLE. NOW OBSERVE CAREFULLY..
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This picture below is my genuine DAD.

YEAH that's my dad. And the similarities between my dad and that NS guy was so exact! FREAKY MAN. GO AND SEE.



This motivator looked EXACTLY like Syazwan sia! The similarities were like, so exact and I was practically staring hard at him. And I texted the genuine Syazwan, and all I got to know was he was actually at home, sleeping. HAH so that was the faux one. But this faux one was like, totally hot seh. His body was like, so solid, so sexy when he was dancing, the good thing was that he was always seen dancing, so this was my ultimate privelege. Mmmmm.. And not to mention that he danced so well.

And Nadee, Amiroool, Hannie, MIRAAA AND MALMAL (ESPECIALLY THIS TWO) had to like, embarass me by calling and signalling to that motivator and kept pointing at me so I had to hide in between Hannie's legs. To the extent that that motivator kept sneaking glances at my direction. TO THAT EXTENT!! OHMYGIDDYGOD!


ACT.





OMG THAT IS HOT.


Parade contigent.




Lightey lights.




If only I can cut the ropes.




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Then we went makan at Kampong Eden (controversial name) at Tamp. Had to blah at 1045 pm cos it was kinda late and also to avoid Mom's opening speech when I get home. Luckily on the way home Syazwan called me so we were talking on the phone all the way till I got back home safe and sound. If not I will have a lonely journey home, which I completely dislike.

Nevertheless, terubat sudah rindu ku pada Nadee, Miraaa, Hannie, Malmal and Miroool cos it has been so long since we met and I must admit I had a hella great good gorgey fabby time with all of you. Not to mention the horny night we had, singing 'Lose My Breath', enjoying solely on the part where we sang, ".. make me lose my UH-HAH-UH-HAH", trying to mock the breathless sound but obviously it didn't turn out good cos I sounded like a toad gasping for breath, and then sang, "I'M TOO SEXY FOR MY SHIRT TOO SEXY TOO SEXY FOR ME" and Miraaa went completely overload by going on to everybody, wrapping her babaty arm around our necks and then with a low voice she said, "Baby d'you want to have fun tonightttt......" but in the end she sounded like a transsexual so we didn't got turned on at all, except for NADEE, she was so turned on, she exchanged flying kisses with Miraaaa and they got so horny that night. How contradicting cos Miraaa said that only mine and Miroool's punches got spiked, but her drink was spiked even more. HAHAHAHAHHAA.







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That was all on Friday night and Saturday respectively. On Sunday I had the Gunung Ledang gathering (which somehow I was looking forward to) at 5 pm, but I was out the whole day before the gathering, so I was like, so panicky and rushing home at 3.30 pm and on the way back home some shit had to happen. I had to blame it on PMS cos I was feeling so sensitive and it was making it even worse. My friend, Nad was blaming me for the spilled secret and I got so intimidated and I was feeling so insecure cos I don't even know what the holy fuck happened. So I called Syazwan and questioned him whether he said anything about Nad to his bestie, Hakim. He denied and told me to talk to Hakim, so I was practically interrogating him, and he told me that he went to meet the goddamn fucker earlier and that fucker told him everything that happened between him and Nad, so technically I AM NOT IN THE WRONG but somehow the tale was twisted cos they put me in the picture. So I called Nad and surprisingly she was so happy and told me that everything's fine and okay, but it was too late cos I was crying in the bus, and to rub it in, some kaypoh makciks had to like, sit beside me of all places and they were staring at me and whispering, I could hear whispers behind me the moment I left my seat. Then Hakim was like, "Eh dah kau jangan nangis ar.. jangan macam gini.." But please don't mention the word 'cry' in either language cos it will make me cry even more. Then I told him that I'm not going for the gathering cos of this shit and I put down the phone. Minutes later Syazwan called me and consoled me, with Hakim's voice in the background saying, "Pergi la, Wan tunggu kau tau.." I was holding a stifle. And my face turned scarlet. So Syazwan asked me to go to the gathering with him. At that point of time I nearly want to run back home cos the clock was ticking close to 4pm. And I had to meet up with him in like, half an hour's time.

Nevertheless, it was raining so I purposely walked in the rain and cried my eyes out. (even though the whole ordeal was over)

So we met up pretty late and reached there at about 5.30 pm. Watched the video that they made out of the pictures that they took during the expedition, and Syazwan's pics came out a lot, all the belo bacin poses and he blamed them on his high fever. Bacin siah that boy.

After the gathering we had jamuan at Mak's Place where they reserved an air-conditioned room and buffet for us! Like seriously, how great is that. I had a good time talking to the female participants and somehow we bonded together as one. And came one part whereby the kakak asked me where do I wanna go after my o's. So I answered truthfully, "To a poly in nursing course." They were all dumbfounded. And one of them said, "You don't look like the nursey-nursey kind. Honestly you look like you're the SIA kind of person, the stewardess-stewardess kind.." I nearly fell off my chair when another one had to add, "..cos of your looks and you're tall."

Holy fuck what in the name of Hannie's turquoise bra are they talking about?

So anyway, the gathering ended pretty well, we exchanged email adds and I ordered the expedition vcd (cos there were a lot of my pics) and on the way home another shit had to happen, which I won't wanna elaborate cos it's too complexed. I bid Syazwan and Nad and her sister goodbye (NAD WENT TO PLAY POOL WITH FIKRI AND FARIS SIAH) and was literally stomping on the way back home, whining like fuck and then dumping my phone on my bed, cos I know my message will be left unreplied. Honestly I was a feeling a bit bitter that night until at night, my waiting was worth it cos Syazwan finally messaged me. But he sounded so cold, just like few hours ago when I bid him goodbye, and then he called me. There was like, a growing tension and I asked him on why he was like being so distant and I know there's something troubling him. But he refused to tell me so I had to poke him further by telling him that he was never this way and blah. Then he admitted that he wanted to ask me something, but seeing me enjoying my time with my friends, he had to hold it back cos apparently he didn't wanna bother me. But the minutes of seriousness was only temporary for for the next hour, 3/4 of the conversation was solely our laughter and jokes and we reminisced about the Gunung Ledang expedition to his belo-ness when he was at Asian Civilisation Museum. Okay I know this was pretty lame but heck! But the time passed like, pretty fast cos the next thing I knew, it was already 1 am and I insist that he go to sleep cos he have school the following day, but that boy refused and refused and I had to force him to sleep and luckily his hp batt went low so we finally put down the phone. And he texted me later, saying that he will ask me the question the following day. So I'm quite technically waiting for tonight to come, to know what the hell was on his mind, cos curiousity is literally killing the cat me.

Oh my I'm like letting 542917519845483215 cats out of the bag now. But heck I need to let this burden off my shoulder. Now I'm feeling so light. Ha di ha.

It's tonight, baby.


Always on my mind, I think I love you.