downturn

My pen has been dancing a lot on my book of expressions. Solely about the down turns that have been greeting me at my doorstep, and others- basically just emo-sessions that I have been having.

My life (from 1st Dec till now) has been plagued with boredom. It's a rare disease, and it kills. Cure, CURE! Where are thou? Bleaack. As I was watching 'The Planet's Funniest Animals' just hours ago, Dad came into the room and sang me a song. Something like, "Words cannot describe your hardwork in your 4 years of secondary school life, this Friday will show whether you're stupid or a genius." Then he cackled and trotted off. Weird isn't it? The first sentence sounds philosophical and touching, and the moment he hits the word 'stupid', I was completely turned off. I don't wanna become stupid nor genius. I just wanna be in the center. Center of gravity. Center of attraction. May I?

I'm suddenly hit with panic attack cos I have yet decide where to go (if results permit). Poly or.. CI? Initially I already had my choice in mind, but Dad psycho-talked me and then again, I had to reconstruct my decision. So I'm kinda confused. But my instincts tell me that retaking my Os is what I'm gonna do. So I might wanna stick to that. We'll see.



I feel like giving up but my pride holds me back.