Chequie,

I saved a newborn kitten who had a hard time enduring the hardships it faces (cheh!). Ya. It can't see, properly. Mum sent me down with a tissue box and a cup of water and I salvaged the abandoned kitty. Tears spilled down. It was such a painful sight. The kitty was really unpriveleged. The mom is nowhere to be seen.

Then my aunt called home. She has a job offer. So I rushed upstairs to her home. My granny was there. And then we talked about a job. The job is at the airport. I enlightened. But then the working hours are from 9 - 5. And requires prolong standing. I don't want. Therefore I refused.

I'm picky. Choosy. Eversince the bakery job, I was kinda 'traumatised'. I don't like the word, 'work'. It sends a shudder. I want to be a student for the rest of my life. I don't want work. Makan gaji.

TThen granny and I went back home. When we reached our level, I 'abandoned' granny cos I need to open the door. Then I thought she would catch up so I entered the house first. But then after 5 minutes, granny still haven't returned. I was worried. I thought she went to the mama shop or something, but it was a ridiculous thought cos granny don't go out at night. So I sent my brother and sister to put on their footwear to find granny, with me along. Bro went upstairs and shouted 'Nenekkk!'. I rushed upstairs. Granny just came out from the lift (Lift is 5th level, my home is 4th level.) She was like, panicking, cos she said I 'abandoned' her so she kept going downstairs until the 1st level, and when she realised that she was at the 1st floor, she went up again. I was practically laughing cos she was so cute. Then my bro was hugging my granny tightly and said, 'Nenek nii.. hilangg..' then I held my granny's arm and we went home. =)

This incident repeated twice. Yesterday my baby bro was lost. He nonchalantly went downstairs and then he got lost. Mom went hysterical and she was crying. Baby bro is only 2 years old. Then I ran out from the house with bro and sis. Then when I reached the first floor, bro was carrying baby bro, who was barefooted. When I reached home, Mom's eyes were red. When she saw baby bro, she was instantly relieved and scolded bro and sis for not closing the gate when they were on their way to my aunt's house. Baby bro didn't cry. I was told that baby bro went to the main carpark. That was friggin' far. Alhamdullilah, he was found.

How come this happened twice in a row? Is there any hikmah behind this? More like, am I going to lose someone I love...? Ya Allah, please do not take the people I love away from me.









Today's my 8th month anni.

Chequie,

I'm feeling very sad, and lost.
And I miss you very badly.
Cos you're still special to me.
Though _____________________.
I still love you.


Don't get the wrong idea.
I'm still with my bf.

Chequie,

THE AMAZING RACE 2005. It was yesterday, and SUPERB.

Had to get my lazy bum off the bed at exactly 5 mins 7 secs cos MEIJUAN darling sms-ed me, telling me to wake up. Uh, you crazy frog.

Then I staggered to the bathroom, and showered. (Is that necessary to tell?)

LOL. Anyway, I'm the first to arrive. Followed by Bryan then Meijuan.



Tired faces.



I came out from Bryan's tummy. He gave birth to me. "MUMMYYYYYYY~!!"



Boredom kills while waiting for Queen Sabirah.




BLEAH.



I failed the 'step' pose miserably.

So when we reached at the Youth Park, it was another moment of boredom. So, SNAPSNAP.











Meijuan's hair so nice. Cos she was bending down halfway when I snapped the pic. WOO.



JC's finger suck.

Then we traveled to the checkpoint. Kampong Siglap Mosque.



Sexy Janey.

Then we wore tudungs.



Cute la MEIJUAN!



Poses.



Imitating, THE MAID.



Malay dance?



Gypsy.



..



She looks exotic siah.



My crystal ball. On Meijuan's neck.



The gypsy-wannabe in kain samping.



Boredom kills, really.



WHAT STARE-STARE? Haha jokingla. I don't normally do that.



Meijuan went in my kain samping. But there's no chemistry between us. =/



Fuggin' step.



The yucky food.



Look inside. We even have a gap.



They're really unfriendly, I tell you. You literally have to force the words out from their mouths.



Stressed.

Then after 4.30pm, we went back to YP. Had performances. Danced with the other YAs. Jived to the music. It was pretty cool. Esp D'funk.



We tried on the traditional costumes. WOO.



Group photo.

So after the energy-consuming dances and crazy runnings around the place (I got chased by a YA. =/ ) we went home. That's when the crazy and mindless things start to happen.



First stage to insanity.



I eat you, you want?



I do not want to eat MEIJUAN, I want this burgerrr, cos it's MORE TASTYY.



MATRIX-STYLE. shhhooot shhhoooooot!



Oi Meijuan, look up there la. Got your legs sticking up there.



We fuckin' rawk.




Going out with Goh Mei Juan makes you crazy.

What's more, there's camp from 5 - 9 Dec. So Mariyanah will be as crazy as Mei Juan.

Chequie,

I QUIT MY JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes. ALREADY quit my job. I only worked for 3 DAYS and just a few hours ago I called up the boss and rreeesssssiigggnneeddddddddd.

YES. Reasons being;

-Can't stand the torture there! ESP BLOODY ALICE who LOVES bullying me! I DON'T CARE WHETHER YOU'RE 21 YRS OLD OR 90000 YEARS OLD OKAY.

-Can't stand the SMELLLLLLLL of the meat, fillings, char siew or the smell of the bakery cos I DON'T LIKE AND IT GAVE ME A HEADACHE AND QUEASY FEELING.

-I felt ostracised cos they all spoke their own language, I don't understand Mandarin and they don't talk to me (except when they had to order me to do WORK, like CLEANING THE WORKPLACE OR EVEN CUT THE CHILLIES.)

-I felt so SMALL. (They treat me like a barbaric idiotic schizophrenic fool)

-THEY SLAVED ME. (MOST IMPORTANT)



Hence, I QUIT. HAHAHHAHA I DON'T CARE WHETHER THEY'RE SHORT OF AN ASSISTANT COS THIS ASSISTANT HAD ALREADY TOLD THEM TO FUCK OFF!!

That's all. Go listen to 'All I want for Christmas is you' by Olivia Olson. You will be amazed by her magnificent and matured voice and then be more amused because she's only a 13 year old actress/singer from Love Actually (2003).

Yeah. I was merely surfing the net about Olivia Olson when this popup came up. PORN. PORN of Lindsay Lohan's pussy, Jessica Simpson naked, Britney Spears XXX (These were written on the heading, I swear I didn't see!) And then I pondered, what if Lindsay's mother is curious whether her daughter had sex or engaged in explicit in activities before, she can just go into Google and type out her daughter's name and then the pictures of her daughter, maybe doing a blowjob to a guy with a 0.0000000001-inched dick or others, hence the pictures will PROOF. But then, most people in the western countries are very open about this. Well, but isn't it a big thing for us here? Imagine, YOU, have porn pics up in the net, then your parents look at it, your naked body and worse, genitals exposed! With a naked guy/girl with you too! Isn't that a bit too shameful? And to think that there was this porn video of a minah tudung having sex with a guy being circulated like a wildfire!? WTH? The world is REALLY coming to and end.

jfkljsafkksafjjdsfklas. I shall sleep now or tomorrow when my sheep calls me, he'll be served with my croaky toady voice which I desperately don't want to let him hear because it's awfully GROSS.
-

Chequie,

I'm SHAGGED. TIRED. EXHAUSTED. PENAT.

Imagine, 12 hours of standing, and walking (when necessary) and nothing else, NO SITTING, for bloody 12 fuckin hours!! TIREDTIRED.

My legs (from knee onwards) HURT LIKE HELL. And to think that there's work tomorrow at 5.30am AGAIN. FJDKJLWETROIWUHTDSAGKHFJKLAS.

I'm SO lonely there cos there's no one to talk to (I'M VERY CHOOSY), there's this married Filipino/Indon/Thai maid (I donno where she comes from), this chinese guy with multiple piercings, 3 aunties (very chio leh, despite their age of around 40-50 plus) and THIS FUCKING IDIOTIC BITCH NAMED ALICE.. knn first day of work already kena scolded by this bitch. JFKLJSAFLJDSAFKSAKFJS SHE'S NOT THE BOSS ANYWAY. And today my boss asked me to WORK FASTER. I hate it kay. She's so hurry-hurry and kelam-kabut, while I love to take my own sweet time. So in the end I did my work in sembronoh way. The kind of, "just do my work for the sake of doing it."

NOW I'M TIRED. I WANT TO SLEEP. BUT I'M WAITING FOR BABYHUNKYHONEYDARLINGDEAR to call. Yah, don't mind that sweet calling of my boyfriend. I'm just trying to imitate someone, if you know what I mean.

Chequie,

Note this, don't care if you're not my lover, bestfriend or whoever who is closely connected to me, but just make a mental note of this,

"By 3pm tomorrow, I will be the happiest girl unknown to humanity."

YOU WANT ME TO ELABORATE? DON'T BE DUMB!!! WHERE HAVE YOU LEFT YOUR BRAINS??!

It's because........................

"MY O-LEVELS ARE OFFICIALLY OVER!!!!"

Which means, I'M A FFRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEEE IDIOT!!

Okay nothing to woo actually. I'm starting work the following day. =(

FISH. BONEFISH. CRAYFISH. KANINAFISH.

I can't picture myself excited. I kept having mental notes that I will be having a paper the next day, ah that kind of shit.

But I shall not think of it since I DON'T NEED TO STUDY.

And, work on Wednesday morning turns me off because...
I HAVE TO SACRIFICE A LOT OF THINGS, LIKE HELL A LOT;

1. THE 5-DAY, 4-NIGHT SENIOR YA CAMP!!!! FUCKFISHHOLYKITTENSACREDCOW.
2. Chalet!! DAMNIDIOTICHUMANFAECES.
3. Amazing race. I might consider joining after 3!

OMG I CRINGED AT THIS NEWS. I'M TEARING ACTUALLY.




BOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I WANNA GO SO BADLY!!

I shall not be a brat.

BYE I SHALL GO DOWN AND BUY CADBURY BOOST AND BROOD OVER THE LOSSES IN BED.

Chequie,

The day when Qamal lent me his digicam for a day: (Be warned! Self-centered contents! *thanks a lot, Syafiq.*)



Looks like a bollywood pic. With me posing with Blackie.



Damn. I love you, sweets.



Soul seduction.



Left dead. Alone. (Kinda looks like an abandoned, lost doll.)



Let's talk, baby.



Lookie, it's hard to get this cat focused to the cam.



Neck strain.



Neck strain #2.



Neck strain #3.



In the bus otw to Lavender to collect Hannie's dear passport.



Hannie and I. Hannie, what's with that look?



Step bloody emo. FUck la.



The camera nearly slipped from my hand.



Our black shoes that have been absorbing dirt yet nobody knows.



Step cheena. Deliberately take the pic with bamboos on the backgrd. You know why? I shall give you a hint. "BELIEVE AND GROW." Okay still dont geddit? BAMBOOS are sewn on my uniform's sch crest la.



When there's nothing left to do.







MUAHAHA. OKAY. I should be okay by now because apparently, something just pissed the hell out of me. But I shan't type it simply because I'm lazy to do so, and I really don't wanna think about it. But hey, I shall be happy because tomorrow is gonna be a good day for me, and I shall be happy. So I shall be happy. Or I shall go and die.

*what's up with "shall"?*

MSN convo with MEIJUAN a.k.a MARYJANE a.k.a CRAZY FROG.
AAAAH i was disconnected and then the convo went MISSING. UGH. I was thinking of copy and paste it here to prove how excited we are about the 5-day Senior YA camp! WOOO.. DRAGONBOAT, PAINTBALL, HERE I COME!! Oooh ooooh campfire! Damn this is pure adrenaline rush. But this time, I think Janey's and my excitement will rush up beyond its limits cos for some reasons or another, we're more enthu than before. But come to think of it, this Janey have to remind me that we will be mixing with KIDDOS which means, majority of the YAs will be those from sec 1 to sec 3s~! OMG I hattteeeeee little kiddies. I ABHORE THEM. *isn't my bf a lil kiddie too?* okay shut up. I shall not let them step over my head in any way, they must be reminded that I'm no longer a sec sch student as I've officially graduated! HAAA`. I don't want to look like I'm part of them, I rather eat frog's shit rather than mmmiinnggglliinnnggg with them. Okay that's it I'm being too egoistic here. Sorry, I don't mean what I've just said. It's just a bizarre and random production from my pent-up anger I'm feeling now. KIDS, GO TO HELL. But nevertheless, I shall be very elated since the campsite resembled a resort cos the bedroom really ROCKS and the dining hall really RULE and I shall be crazy for the 5 days or so. Janey promised to bring the camera, so I shall be very very very very happy.

I will be very very scared for the next 4 hours because the clock will be going to strike 3 am and I will be reminded of 'The Exorcism Of Emily Rose' and I will be seeing a black apparition at the hallway, and Judas, Lucifer, Adolf Hitler, Cain will come and possess me and won't get out from my body. EISH I'm shaking now. This is really scaring the shit out of me. I shall hide under the covers now. Bye.