Chequie,

I'm watching R.E.T.R.I.B.U.T.I.O.N falling apart. Don't know eh, maybe this is one of the downfalls that bestfriends are supposed to face, ey? Hmm don't know eh. I don't want Hannie to like, think negatively about me or so forth, or even trust her insecurities a little too much. Well, maybe my 'naive-ness' made me look like a fool, stupid and idiotic. It's true. People kept on taking advantage of me, they see me as a vulnerable victim, a weakling, so they decided to take their toll on me. It's not fair. NOT FAIR.

Well, I am an angry girl everyday. I normally come to school feeling pissed, but I NEVER show it to anybody. I NEVER vent my anger to anybody. Instead, I conceal my anger by singing (out-of-tune), joking and doing silly things to cheer people up, but never myself. That's why you always see me in a cheerful mode. Instead, I'm really angry inside. Ultimately pissed off. Anyway, it isn't fair to vent your anger on someone innocent, for example your best friend. I can't possibly treat Hannie coldly just because I'm pissed (but not with her.) It's just not fair.

Okay, now I'm pissed.

Maybe I'm meant to be 'advantageous'. Sorry for the misuse of vocab, I just mean it. Like I said, people like to take advantage of my 'naive-ness' and 'idiotic-ness'. Well, life has to go on this way, I suppose.

I don't want us to break apart just because of a stupid conflict between Mira and Yanni, okay. Please, please leave your insecurities aside. They'll wreck it up all.